Lisa has been writing about feeling lonely, about me not spending time with her. The thing is though, I feel so pushed out of it all that there is noone I can talk to, her included. The only person that I can talk to is ash and I'm so scared of losing him when I go to university. I just hope that he comes with me, I can't see myself surviving without him, I'm no good at making friends any more, I've just got good at losing them. I'm so selfish.